My heart breaks for you my land. My home. My heart aches for you. I don’t know whats going to happen, I don’t understand what is happening now. My soul is in agony, distress and in pain.
I don’t even know what to say anymore, words have run dry. What else is there left to say? How many people have to die for us to see reality? Today, it’s over a hundred, tomorrow 200, a week later a thousand. I’ve lost hope. I’ve lost hope in people, in humanity, in goodness and kindness. I’ve lost hope in hope.
Egyptians watching other egyptians die and cheering. Egyptians watching mosques being surrounded and people being locked inside. Egyptians dying. And they still don’t see it. They are still standing up against them. They are willing to see them bleed on the streets. I don’t know what to say…
I am in actual agony. Its just …. how? How can they not see it? Why? Why don’t they want to see it? Someone explain this to me, please, somebody tell me how a human being can be so blinded to another’s suffering. Somebody explain to me how we can watch each other die while cheering with fireworks in the sky.
This is kills me. I look around and all I feel is disdain about everything, disgust at the monsters roaming the streets of egypt, and misery at the state of my country. People dying, and other claim they killed themselves to get the media’s attention. State tv lying balantly and people believing it. Murder after murder, lie after lie and nobody seems to get.
Everyday the wedge is deepened more and more, and I scream and I beg anyone to try to think but nobody wants to. My hands shake as I write this. My face sad and soul tortured.
Egyptians have made history, a dark history that will only ever be remembered with pain and agony.
I am Egyptian and I am not a terrorist. And I mourn the deaths of those not afraid to stand up against this.